ON THE BRINK OF BECOMING 1

EXPLORER

WHILE YOU WERE SLEEPING

WIDDLE TOOTSIES

I just wanted to take the time to document the cute way Carter sticks his toes through his blanket. I think he does this whenever his feet are sock free.  I love my little boy's funny personality.  This has been going on ever since he was a tiny newborn.  He has never liked being bound up or covered over with blankets.  Even as a little baby he would struggle to get free if I tried to swaddle him. To keep him warm in the winter I would put him in footed pajamas. Now that it is summer, Carter is really enjoying the freedom to wiggle his toes in the open air. Isn't interesting how even the tiniest humans have strong personalities?

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SICK DAY con't GRANDMA COMES

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My mom came to watch Carter today since he's still sick. This picture is of the two of them sitting on my bed.  I've been so blessed to have a mother (and sister) who care about me and are willing to help whenever I call. Carter adores his Grandma and Aunt Rachel and his face lights up whenever he sees them.

MOMMY'S LITTLE LAMB

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My Dearest Carter,

In the stillness of the night I tiptoe into your nursery.  It is so quiet and peaceful here.  I can hear you breathing softly and I watch your little chest rise and fall.  Sometimes I reach over to stroke your hair.  It is so soft and very fine.  Other times I gently caress your little chubby hands or pat your little round tummy.  Every once in awhile you stir a little so I have to stop before I wake you up.  I go in here to check up on you to make sure that you are warm enough and that you are breathing okay.  This is a nightly ritual. I think about you all the time and want to spend every possible minute of my life with you.  You are my heart’s delight and you have brought unspeakable joy into my once dull life. I begged God to give me a baby and he gave you to me.  Now my arms have someone to hold and to love forever.  I’m more fully aware of my human existence now that I have become your mother.  You are part of the reason for why I was created and for why I was put on this earth.  I thank God every day for giving you to me.  If anything ever happened to you my heart would be rent into pieces never to be put back together.  As I stand here in your nursery I think about our future together and how I can help you grow into a man.  God has given me this responsibility and I do not want to let Him down.  I look forward to watching you grow and mature. You are so precious to me.  I want to experience with you every happy or sad event in your life.  No matter what happens I will always be here for you with open arms to share in your excitement or to wipe away your tears.  My love for you is like a two edged sword – one side is a dull, constant pain because I know that someday you will grow to be a man and leave me to start your own family.  Sometimes this pain feels so sharp and I weep.  This time of your infancy is too short and so precious.  I try to slow the time down, but to no avail.  We’re living on God’s timetable.  The other side of the sword is a feeling of excitement, happiness and contentment in living our lives together here and now.  I prefer to feel this side of the sword the most, but I cannot get away from the knowledge that you are growing too fast and the ache in my heart sets back in. The clock is ticking fast and I feel so rushed to spend as much time with you as possible. You are my darling baby boy and I love you extreme.

- Mommy

GRANDPA COMES FOR A VISIT

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Dad came over for a visit this morning.  I can tell that he loves seeing Carter.  He doesn’t say it so much in words, but I can see it in the way he interacts with the baby.  I enjoy being able to see him which is something I don’t get to do very often.  Carter was his usual self today – cheerful and bouncy except for when he got hungry.  Then he was like a wild cat, lol.  Dad didn’t seem to mind though and took it all in stride.  Here is super short video of the two of them. 

ELVA'S BLANKET

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YELLOW BLANKET

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